Yup - it's that time of the year again☀️
The sun manages to shine a little warmer, brighter and more often, people hang out on the streets again more, dine out, go dancing and in general enjoy life more (or at least that's how I see it). I know I do.
This time of the year makes me feel sunnier, happier - makes me want to do a little dance when I wake up - because sun rays, warm & loving sun rays wake me up instead of cold, depressing, pouring rain.
No wonder it's always around this time every year that people (I say people - I mean guys) tend to text me out of the blue. Supposedly random - completely unaware of the fact that they too have been influenced by the change of the season. If I'm doing alright, if I remember last summer or the summer before, if I might be interested in having a coffee?
However flattering (depending on who's asking and how you choose to look at it) I usually decline. Every now and again it's someone with whom I got along quite well, which makes me want to see if maybe, just maybe, it could be that I missed something. Needless to say it always turns out that I didn't.
So in the end coffee remains coffee - a bitter substance that most people drink to wake up.
And it always does exactly that, it wakes me up, realizing I was simply wanting to believe that coffee is more than what it fundamentally is. Yet every summer I seem to be oblivious to this fact. As if I'm living in some kind of twilight, a different reality, a bubble waiting to be popped.
And when winter starts and I just want to crawl under the heaviest duvet around and sleep until it's at least late spring again.
Too bad - society decided that we need to be as productive as possible - imagine changing our schedules based on the seasons - that would be a complete economical disaster🙄
I'd vouch for it though. The amount of energy I have during summer would more than make up for the lack I feel during the colder times.
Someone recently said that balance doesn't necessarily mean that you're always exactly in the middle.
One day you wake up and you're in the deepest, darkest corner of your mind - and a few weeks later you can be soaring above all the unhappiness as if it never existed. True, some people tend to be more around the center than others, I for a fact happen to always be in one or the other extreme, for as long as I can remember.
So yeah, I guess that if it means that I'm euphoric during summer and depressed during winter, then so be it.
Spring & autumn give me a little time in between to reflect, to catch a breather.
To mentally prepare myself for what I know is around the corner.
Winter brings out my inner hermit - summer the flower baring hedonist - and in between I guess I'm pretty close to the center of this ever shifting internal universe🦄🌈✨